Samantha Taylor 

Today

I don't know what the day will bring I hope mind games will stay at a stand still. :) I am coming out of withdrawal of self pity and realizing finally that i can do something with myself regardless of a confining situation and deeply care for those around me. I hope that i can continue to climb the hill and do well and no longer be lonely. That doesn't change who i am inside.

Happy Mothers Day

This to all mothers out there one who lives an hour away that works and takes care of her kids very well. and is a very good mom regardless of past mistakes . :)

Planning for this next week

I am planning for this next week to work on a strategy to sell my artwork. According to the lady at the place, it's outsider folk art. I hope that you thought that it was good, but I do realize that you have to improve your work as well, as try to find the right way to market it and create it. :) I am looking forward to getting it out there so people can see how interesting it is. :)

build up

Layers of crud just seem to blow away after years of build up. :) And something that's just so simple seems to break free all the heartless buildup that has been on it for years. I am sorry. :) Anyway, with heartlessness theres those things you didn't realize before words began to spill, before space age freezer packages began to fly into the discard box. It's difficult to take back those things, I have to keep pressing on and trying to understand every piece of the puzzle. :) I am samantha and i don't know exactly where it puts me on this boat but where i am sailing to i hope theres peace of mind. ;)

the wall flowers

I was listening to the wall flowers on the today's show a few minutes ago. It brought back memories of college, i still feel like that timid college kid, but i feel as though my mind has been played with turned to tossed salad and then blended into tapioca pudding. I don't know what all this is about but i am learning gradually. I still want my mind. I got told i needed a pchaitrist and then I got told by my father that i had a very good mind. Good mind. really? :) I hope so.

born gifted

Some of us was born with the gift of voice, voice meaning voicing what you want, others were given other things, but those who have voice, those people were given a talent over the one that don't have a voice and cannot find one for themselves. People get into the train of thought where they are so deluded that they believe the world is against and revolves around them, sad to say that it doesn't there are people in this world that have those they care about and care about them eventhough they don't use their voice as they should, they have people in their life that need to take up for them. Maybe that's the problem too many people in one situation where one who doesnt see options so well can see clearly. Options. Theres options in every situation. you know you can either take this easy way out or you can take this hard way out and be free from these things that's been worrying you. I am not talking about anyone but myself incase anyone wants to know. ;)

Im not leaving again

i admit what i want, i love those people that i hurt and hurt me. I wont go again. i still love
even those i don't know that are...... and i do need a good brain doctor or maybe i just need a big kiss.( if you want now, but not reccomended.
or maybe a ... vacation away somewhere, dern have enough travel brochures for that :) wish mail that was supposed to come would come ;) thank you people.

:) i still

I still.....................

iz back

and iz staying

blood and oil

Blood and oil do not mix, but if you take olive oil i am pretty sure that it will fix leaking valves