Samantha Taylor 

Completeness

Have you ever noticed, no one is ever complete. You keep looking, you keep searching, but you never exactly have every single thing in life that you want. No one is ever complete, but will always search for completeness

So stressed out

Sometimes i am inspired to say such wierd things then i get so completely stressed out and i don't understand how when i wake up in the morning , Maybe it is waking up knowing i have to repeat the same thing again. Hopefully, i can break the pattern of a terrible "groundhog's day" :D

Do you like my viginnette?

How do you like my writing? :) That was written for me . I wrote it for myself and i hope that you like it. :)

reflections in a shallow pool

Sitting here looking at this shallow pool, the reflections of my life seem to pass away with the waves one line at a time, one shimmer in the sunlight, do those reflections that i see through the waves remind me of those beautiful lit glimmers? No all i see is the ugliness, and i cannot get past the beautiful golden beams that seem to hit in sequence. the shadows in between those lines remind me of so many years that i have seemed to hide behind the wall, put the barriers there that way no one wouldn't know how i was really like inside. It has taken me this long to drift ashore with the sunlight travelling behind my back, i can see how the waves have hit and eluded erosion, breaking down the barriers one grain of sand at a time, all i can say is thank you, dear lord for bringing me this far out of the deep abyss that i had drown in for so long, but i am not to the golden shore yet, continue to help me to sail back to the place that i need to be, but how long o' lord shall it be :

Madness

How do you find peace in all the madness that goes on around you? :) THere's just so much commotion that it's hard to read a word in edgewise or carry on a conversation with someone. :) Sometimes in admist to all the comotion that goes on around you, you can reflect one moment, one brief moment when someone had to sigh or draw another breath in between words, those moments are like gold ;)

rose colored glasses

Seeing the world through rose colored glasses is good, but if you stay behind distorted color you can't see everything clearly, your thinking becomes fogged and your perception of life becomes craggy. :) So if you look through shades of grey what do you see....gloom and despair and it's not something that you should look at.
So look at the world the way God made it and percieve for yourself what you see. A beautiful world or one behind foggy glasses. :)

Dr. Phil

I do not like Howard Stern but I will say one thing. He is absolutely right about the graphic talk and behavior on television. Howard Stern talks for amusement and gets into graphic details, but have you ever sat back and listened to a episode of Oprah or Dr. Phil? Oh my God! :( It's horrible! What is this world coming to. Call me old fashioned and a little niave but I was taught some morals. Do you realize that there are young people watching and older people that do not want to listen to such filth? What goes on between two people that are married should stay between themselves and a therapist off television. As far as Howard Stern is concerned. He's right, but sorry howy still don't like you.

Web Phishing

Have you ever been Phished? Be aware of your emails and know there are "fake" companies mimicking real companies out there that are stealing other's information, it's called web phishing. Check the links in your emails out. I have had several of these sent to me. notice on the bottom of your outlook express program when you start to click on the link. In the link, it will have your link to the website. On a phiser email, you can notice that on this bottom bar in outlook, there won't be a link with this address, but it claims to associate with the website. Through any emails you get in your inbox, do not put any information into these html forms. If you do it goes directly to the hacker. If you are insecure about your account or anything of that nature, go directly to the website in which you have an account. Identity theft is more common than ever, and it doesn't take an idiot to get hit, anyone can fall victim to these.
Another tip in determining fact from fiction is right click your link in the mail, then if you are using Microsoft Windows, click on properties and look at the source of the email. If linux, source or "more info" Please notify your website of choice or company about spoofing and they will get down to the nitty gritty. Make sure you forward the email to them for further investigation. Stay safe and have fun online.

Eagle's Branches

When I read the bible this morning, I didn't realize what magnificance I would be given. I just flip through the good book (Bible) and read whatever is put in front of me. I flipped unexpectedly to Ezekial 17 1-24. God truly puts into words through Ezekial the symbolic thoughts of a piece treaty. :)
It seems like with everything you come to in your path, there's symbolism. When the sun shines through your window, it's symbolizes that God's love shines on you. :) When a branch is beneath your feet there is always a chance to make piece. :) I think this is exactly what Ezekial 17 1-24. Someone may argue me down, but what you don't realize is that there is different meaning to everything. You can read revelation a million times and come up with a dozen different opinions and translations, each person has their own personal meaning. I will tell you my own personal meaning.
In this segment of the Bible, Ezekial 17 1-24, a piece treated is treated symbolically through eagle and it's branches or "vine". In the parable there was an eagle with a huge wing span and beautiful wings. He flew into the Lebanon Mountains and broke the top off of a cedar tree and then carried it to a land of Commerce planting it in a fertile field where there was always water to make it grow. The plant sprouted low and wide spreading vine. The roots went in deep , low laying vine, covered with branches and leaves.
There was another eagle with huge wings and thick plummage, he planted it in such a way that it would turn more toward him in hope that it was giving more water than where it was growing. The vine had already been planted in fertile, well watered field so that it could grow fruit and be a great vine.
In another segment of Today's English Standard Bible. God sends hope for the oppressed party. the Lord himself says that he will take the top from the cedar and plant it on a high mountain. It's branches will grow wide, bear seed and be great. Birds of every kind will find shelter in it's shade.
All the trees in the land will know who God is. Cutting down larger trees and making small trees grow from strong. Withering green trees, making brown ones turn green. In Ezekials words, God ends by saying literally that he will do exactly what he says.

Coming to a conclusion

Sometimes people have epiphanies, i feel like a poopyhead or maybe my head is clogged with so many cobwebs, its hard to move around to find the light switch. Brain farting isn't good, maybe i have been in a karmatic blackhole to long.... stuck in a black and white picture where a head flies around scaring the living daylights out of someone. Now i sound wierd, i know some folks have to be laughing around now. I just feel like poot. :)
Last night i checked my email and there was this fourth notice of this idjet wanting to talk with me. I didn't know him from adams house cat and didn't really want to get to know him, i feel someone was tampering with my chat id. I think i will create another one for security purposes. I deleted my other one because of security purposes. How can ya feel secure. Oh well, i will just start over again. I just found my email address that i lost the password to and urgh...I am not losing hope, i am going to stay strong... if i have to roll with the punches i will do so until i become as tough as nails, right now i am drowning in a wet kleenex. :) Argggh. :) Take care and have a nice day and stay away from the saddies