Arent i stupid :( 

Arent i stupid :(

I chickened out of doing what i really wanted to do and let my feelings get away with what i think will make me happy, :( I am a lunatic :( I want so badly to get out and get motivated and get into the workforce an be a part of life, i just stay perched up in my little shell. not going or doing and need something kosher and something that feels normal. :( I am just so darned scared. :( I signed up for federal aid for college and it says that my information didn't match my address and my etc. :( somethings wrong there, i did go call and tell someone what happened, before i wouldn't do anything about it, i would just blow it off. :( but i do need this, i need out a change in my life, and i can only do it.