not back to square one 

not back to square one

crying isn't the end? Is it a step forward or back. I haven't been this way in a year or so i know, but i know it wasn't right being consumed with so many things. but i want my freedom, and i am willing to work for it, i don't want hand outs. I just don't know...except to just do. do things. Like right now i could be sweeping. :) I could be doing something, but what am i doing? I am stupid