Just had to write sorry 

Just had to write sorry

I just had to write i am sorry, I hope i am not worrying anyone. I am not about to give up. I have planned some things that require no money on anyones part only my effort that's concerned. I don't go around using people or situations. I have just got to overcome this stupid depression that's held me back for so long. I am tired of living in sadness and want to be completely happy. I can't be happy like i am right now. I feel confined and stuck.
Why? Why do we have to go through so many differernt struggles? What's the purpose. Sometimes selfish and deluded thinking gets you into the situation to where what's false and real becomes totally an illusion and i just need to i don't know. i am totally fighting it. Right now, I just guess i need to cry a little more a little louder maybe even scream a little bit more.
Information, the more you know, the more you can conquer what's eating away at you and what has been bothering you. You can't fight alone if you are stuck in the dark without any type of defense and you can't let anyone lend you a hand and you can't let anyone try to help you. Forcing yourself to do things maybe the best way to get over it, yet it can set u back like it did before.