Honesty going ca-ching to the bank hopefully
About a year ago, all of these things started happening to me. Now I find out that they are all jokes. Today, Today, I woke up about 8:00pm...I got up turned on the today's show and waited to get into tohe kitchen to get something to eat. I realized, it was like a dream to a person who rarely ever gets out, exremely angry about the way I had began this project with a friend who came over here. My sister had ties with him and I didn't really want nothing to do with him because of the envolved in it.
Several things took alot of damage to the heart. I am not thick skinned, and when I seen family guy and that other show, I was ripped into pieces. Anyway, the situation follows this, I don't want to ruin anyone's life, but the curses before were plum awful, and some of the retard things were funny I have to admit, but this disquisting stuff, I became angry. My fahter was talking about some plans at that time for me. I was angry and I said "liar" He makes promises that he can't keep, that's the only thing I meant by it, but an insult is an insult and everytime I feel I am wrong about something, I make amends. When I found out I had a short form of autism, sensativity is one key factor in it. A few minutes ago, never mind that you see it. I just want to feel a little peace in the situation, but my scared attitude is something I can't too much help, and my fears were caused by series of things over the past five years. Remember I told you about panic attacks, periods of crying, virtually shaking all over from and irrational fear. When I was blamed for someone else's problems, and now I don't know whether i have a brain tumor or whatever else it is. I have no reason to believe as people are still good to me. Thanks for your headlights and thank you for all your support. Thank you....but I feel like some people need to tend to their own problems and not blame their problems on me., and I really feel blessed with this advertisings and my own company, and it's just going to be even better when I get to go and see for myself. Right now, in my prayers and in my mind I really want to be in and accept these things, and I hope you don't hate me. That's what I am most scared about. I think this technology is wonderful and I want to keep going, never stop and want to see faces behind this, I mean him. My thoughts get muddied through the daily process, and sometimes it's unacceptable to me. Those irrational thoughts were from the beginning to the end. It's wrong to blame someone for your problems. My problems were from years of reclusiveness, being my own psychologist and finding out that my mother is mr. The fact at the begining was very frightening. I am just hoping to get better at it. I have always wanted to be social. I hope to God that I am not dying of a brain tumor, and I hope to God that I am not alot of things. So many celebrities to shake hands with, and so many people to say I LOVE YOU TOO. I am extremely angry at the notion that my problems caused someone else's problems. It would be pretty sorry of someone to do this to another just as she's getting well. Well! I hope also that my head has helped someone else. Going into the mind and I hope I get out of it and see haiti happy, see those in Iraq happy with their own homes, as well as Katrina victims who lost their homes, and I hope I can think about something else to do... and Kick me...no. I am a very rich woman....Thank you .....I still think the ports isn't a good idea although the UAE people are very good people. We are fighting a war in Iraq and in pakistan/afghanistan, and etc. I think we need to come to a peaceful understanding before we can tend to businesses in our land. God bless my family because we have all been in this together, and some have been more understanding and mindful. Thank you Oh, but stay clear of those who are horrible, you see me here on a day to day basis. I am unfortunately a cluster of all things imaginable, Thank you for my advertising company, and I hope that i can run it and hire some good people to help me. Perhaps developmental delayed people. The only way I see people on the local news, I think those ewho represented Aum party. I thought they were absolutely wonderful people, just as wonderful as those I wake up with every morning. I really want to work hard at this, I am so tired of depression, it's the worst feeling a person can have, and why can't you come to a conclusion with it? God. plain and simple, I want my brother and sister in law can be a part of this and it's like pushing a donkey out the door to do things, make it takes the stinger of a yellow jacket to relieve the sturdiness of it's ass. My father said something about a family member, don't blame anyone for this, except an underlying factor. It could be that irritation...mmmmmmmmmmmm? It's getting better
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