when you lose the important years 

when you lose the important years

When you lose those most important years of your life because you live in silence, live in complete silence keeping yourself from others, trying to cope and take everything in all at once, how do you respond when in this situation when you have nothing to shell out but all those terrible memories, and dealing with thet glass house theory. How do you respond...I admit, I am not sane, but every single thing that's come to past through perpetuation, nervousness, the fact that there is more to the situation from the other platform, all you can do is sit alone in silence and take it all in. Christ, I wonder if he's watching the situation, and there are some that don't care about christ in the situation, gain. Gain from what? A scared woman backed into a corner and do people feed off of that fear for fun and entertainment? It is entertaining to some. Let's give another scenerio, 10 yrs ago you met someone, you lost out on college, throughout this time, your sibling acts sketchy in so many ways, later on you see that person is seen at your brothers first wedding (97), then again at christmas in 98. In this time frame, your sister moves to the same town he lives in. 2001 you have extreme panic attacks one fine christmas day, then you begin talking to someone on the internet, it's him he perpetuates himself as another one, throughout this period of time.....throughout this whole period it's been a whole paranoia thing. Then one fine day, you are still that shaky nervous wreck that has been a see-saw throughout your lifetime, then this little game happens through the man, your sister and yourself, and yeah all youcan seem to do is cry. You don't have no clues as what to do. Maybe God knows and can straighten it out, and somehow there are those out there with more than you have, if that chance had been given to you...and that chance had been offered maybe you could fight the situation, but since you can't you might as well let it go on.