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back to planet earth

I am back to planet earth, yeah the real world. :( i did try to overcome my problems, thought well getting a job was a good move on my part. :( Unfortunately, i feel like it was a bad idea as well, i should have never pushed myself into something like that. :( I am socially retarded and shouldn't have tried to even go there. :( social suicide. Maybe i should just i don't know what do you think.

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Comment i am not going to give up on the concept of a job just yet, i figure if i take limited hours maybe i can eventually get used to working and not freak out so much. It's difficult being me.

Sun May 29, 2005 7:08 am MST by Anonymous

Comment Hi Samantha, What Mike said is true: When you are out in that real world, just remember that everybody you see is out there too.... There are few people who don't feel like a social retard...just because some are very good at putting on a mask for the world doesn't mean that 'inside' are not the same struggles that we 'insecure' ones deal with...... Was the job to be a full time job? Was it going to be physically stressful? Or too fast paced? You said in one recent post that you have been in the house for 10 years..... Realizing too that you have a lot on your plate already, ---maybe a full time job, or the job enviroment wasn't what you need to begin---- Do you go out occasionally, for walks, or garden or something? Like Mike said: Small steps.... If you don't feel that you could handle the committment of a full time job, how about a part timer....or possibly get involved in some volunteer work on occasions....anyplace that you start is good, but you must break out of the routine of the past 10 years.... I use to have horrible panic attacks...was on medication for more than 3 years because of them...I had gotten so bad that I could not leave my home, go shopping, etc...the 'noise' of the outside world oppressed me so badly.... When I had weaned off the medication, (under dr's orders -- Xanax is very addictive-- I had such overwhelming sensations and it took more than a year to adjust.... Knowing that the Lord was my helper, strength and protector made a big difference....for many times I would want to go back to the medication, rather than find that strength within to face life.... But I sensed His encouragement within my heart to take it slow, but keep going... Dear dear Samantha, take it slow, but keep going... You have so much of life to enjoy, I pray that you will look at life as a great gift one day, and not with fear... Bless you.....

Fri May 27, 2005 5:22 am MST by Karen

Comment From your post, may I assume that you got a job and it didn't work out? I remember my first job... I was a dishwasher at an IHOP in Savannah Ga, and made like $1.50 an hour. My second job was at a service station pumping gas and washing windshields. (I guess that makes me old as dirt cause how long has it been since anyone has had someone pump their gas for them? lol!) When you are out in that real world, just remember that everybody you see is out there too.... out there on the same limb as you and some are probably just as nervous.. Small steps at first... get used to it then as you feel comfortable, bigger ones. :)

Fri May 27, 2005 4:22 am MST by Mike

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