skanky loser 

skanky loser

Anyway, I tried this a dozen times and I continued to get a expiration page. :) I volunteered today, I felt like such a retard, it was dissolutioning. Especially when you look back and see how far you have come in this stupid game that's being done. You feel like a lunatic, after all the bullshit forgive my french that you have been through through your lifetime and how much of a psycho that you have been in the crossfire, how everyone percieves the situation is what's dishardening. I wouldn't do this to anyone no matter what has happened. I know that my mouth has been somewhat harsh, I know that I have been somewhat of an ass, but life goes on. Some people are more on top of the situation than they need to be, and some of them just are in it to laugh at the stupid fool in her bare glory. Should she be pissed or should she just laugh and be done with it? She wants out, from the bloody beginning to the bloody end, she feels like picking up the phonebook he tossed outside of her mailbox and feels like calling him. Would it be right? She doesn't know. She feels in limbo. torn between two different things. Somethings have made her feel so pathetic, looking at her surroundings from point a to b she has felt that way. She truly needs help and being pathetic as she is she is asking for it. Knowing you have brains, you see what youve done and realize where in the hell was i? You still like the person that put you through the bullshit , why? You don't know....perhaps God can lend a fist in the situation. Anyway, keep me in your prayers. I need them more than ever... it's easier said than done when you have something stuck in your throught, shaking all over and have something in your chest...and get this..I am thirty. My downfall all my life has not been showing any weaknesses, but now. I have to let you know what I am feeling and how hard it is to keep going. Maybe physics and depression go hand in hand in some sense of the matter. keep skankwad in your prayers. :) Take care and have a nice day.. last will in testiment ;) 2003-05

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